My sincere and heartfelt sympathy on the passing of your loved one Mr. Garib. No words at this time will take away the pain and sorrow you feel but, God’s word will comfort and strengthen your and your family and give you hope. Revelation 21:4 read, And he (God) will wipe out every tear from their eyes and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be any more. The former things have passed away. You are thinking, why that cannot happen now? Trust in God, it will happen soon. While we wait for that time please, read your Bible constantly and pray continually for strength and courage to cope, meditate on what you read and be guided by its directions.