Please accept my sympathy on the passing of your family member: Louise Bridgewater.
I know how heartbreaking it is to lose a family member in death, we feel that no one can understand how we feel, and you are right to a point, as we all express our grief in different ways .
But there is someone who knows and sees everything, and he acknowledges that our heart can be broken and crushed, but Jehovah is certainly able to deal with this situation, for he is heals the broken-hearted He binds up their wounds. ( Psalm 147:3)
Revelation 21:4 describes a future time when death will be no more. And we know the one who promised this cannot lie.